My fault.

I have a bit of a problem – I know I have broken my own rules and I have to put an end to the bedroom-only dimensions of my relationship with a fellow who can moonlight as a leprechaun.

Want to know how I know this?  I gave myself the edict to not date while in school.  And while I joke about meeting sailors and having An Officer and a Gentleman moments in Halifax, I really haven’t been looking much.  My motivation to even try is missing.  I think I left it somewhere in, oh gee, I dunno….Saskatoon?

So then, when our daily conversations started to become semi-daily, and now seemed forced and the like, it’s terribly uncomfortable.  I would like to raise the issue in an effort to keep things transparent enough to save the friendship, but I am not sure how to go about doing that.  I could just be blunt, but then things start to fall into the “Unrequited” category,  and I do not like unrequited anything – let alone love.

I could just let it go.  Which is what I am opting to do for now.  However, there is still the February trip that looms over any letting go I could be doing.  February is a long ways away from now.  A lot of things could change.  And I think, as I write this, my desire to date, have sex, or do anything relationshipy is merely on hold.  Wait until the leafs game and the trip to Toronto before I totally let go.

Which is probably smart, because I am only a week and a half in, and school is already kicking my ass.

/J